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Wednesday, 21 June 2017

Madasamy and Ramasamy

Ramasamy passed B.tech and placed at MNC during Campus Recruitment. CTC 4 lakhs. His Relatives, Family friends of wished him for success. That’s it Ramasamy face glowed like Petramax light and thought himself from today every day will be happy.

Madasamy beside to Ramasamy house got failed in Degree. All his relatives and family friends blamed Madasamy as everyone in Hyderabad is studying B.tech but Madasamy even failed in degree.  Every one gave him suggestions like to sell Idly, Dosa….  Put Pan shop…  or sell Milk…  His Father was very much embarrassed. Now what to do…? Madasamy asked his mother 2 lakhs and borrowed 2 more lakhs then bought buffaloes and started Milk Business.

Ramasamy bought bike through credit card and started to office. Madasamy on TVS with Milk Cans also started to sell. Ramasamy proudly said ‘Hai’ to Madasamy. Madasamy with embarrass look said ‘Hai’ and left to their duties.

6 months passed away….
Ramasamy cleared 20% interest over bike; still actual price 80K is pending. Madasamy cleared 1 lakh out of his 2lakh borrowed money. Both faced each other, Ramasamy gave small smile thinking that when he will clear 80K. Madasamy also gave narrow smile by thinking about his remaining 1 lakh loan.

1 year passed away…..
Ramasamy put hopes on salary hike. Suddenly due to recession company mailed this year no hike. Now half liter milk price increased to 14/-Rs from 10/-Rs. This profited Madasamy to 30% and cleared remaining 1 lakh loan amount. By now anyhow Ramasamy cleared his Bike loan and brought Personnel loan of 2 lakhs for 16% interest. Ramasamy bought furniture, LCD, LapTop with 2 that lakhs. Every One accolade Ramasamy as he brought these accessories in just 2 years of job. Now Madasamy with his Profited money brought 12 more buffaloes. His income doubled.

Again both faced each other. Ramasamy gave doubtful smile thinking about his Personnel loan. Madasamy gave heart full smile since he doesn’t have any debts.
After 2 Years Ramasamy got 10% salary hike. He then bought a Maruthi Wagan R car through Car Loan. Mean time Madasamy bought 2 acres land for his 3 dozens of buffaloes. Even Milk Prices raised to 30% again. Now Madasamy income is 200% more than Ramasamy. Madasamy owned one Auto to sell Milk. One more time both faced each other. By thinking his Loans and Interests Ramasamy unable to give whole Hearted Smile. Whereas Madasamy smiled confidently from his own Auto.

2 more years passed away…..!
Ramasamy applied to 40 lakhs home loan and bought one apartment. Madasamy buffaloes number crossed Century. Madasamy bought 2 apartments. Ramasamy got 10 more percent salary hike. Milk price crossed 40/Rs per liter now. Total income of Madasamy is 500% more than the income of Ramasamy. That’s all Madasamy bought 1 Skoda and 1 Innova Car. Both faced each other. Ramasamy gave tension smile by thinking that when he will clear 40 lakh loan. Madasamy gave Confident smile since he own a single size Milk Factory with more than 100 buffaloes and 25 workers.
That night Ramasamy was in a deep frustration. Because after 5 years Madasamy own 4 crores of Money, monthly 5 lakhs of income, provided jobs to 25 workers.   Ramasamy salary is 7 lakhs with 40 lakhs debt and un satisfactory job. This is the Balance Sheet.

Facts: In 2008 Milk was 10/- litre. Now 40/- litre. Gold 12500/- 10 grams, Now 30000/-.  In the last 5 years salary hikes for software professionals was just 30%.  All commodity prices increased to 300%. Still many people from outside think about  engineers that as they earn in lakhs…   For them show this or share……..

PESAMA 🐄MAADU🐄 MECHURUKKALAMO!!!

Thursday, 27 April 2017

A True and Moving Story

A sobbing little girl stood near a small church from which she had been turned away because it was too crowded. "I can't go to Sunday School?" she sobbed to the pastor as he walked by. Seeing her shabby, unkempt appearance, the pastor guessed the reason and, taking her by the hand, took her inside and found a place for her in the Sunday school class. The child was so touched that she went to bed that night thinking of the children who have no place to worship Jesus.

Some two years later, this child lay dead in one of the poor tenement buildings and the parents called for the kind hearted pastor, who had befriended their daughter, to handle the final arrangements.

As her poor little body was being moved, a worn and crumpled purse was found which seemed to have been rummaged from some trash dump. Inside was found 57 cents and a note scribbled in childish handwriting which read, "This is to help build the little church bigger so more children can go to Sunday school."

For two years she had saved for this offering of love. When the pastor tearfully read that note, he knew instantly what he would do. Carrying this note and the cracked, red pocketbook to the pulpit, he told the story of her unselfish love and devotion. He challenged his deacons to get busy and raise enough money for the larger building.

But the story does not end there! A newspaper learned of the story and published it. It was read by a Realtor who offered them a parcel of land worth many thousands. When told that the church could not pay so much, he offered it for 57 cents. Church members made large donations. Cheques came from far and wide.

Within five years the little girl's gift had increased to $250,000.00--a huge sum for that time (near the turn of the century). Her unselfish love had paid large dividends.

When you are in the city of Philadelphia, look up Temple Baptist Church, with a seating capacity of 3,300 and Temple University, where hundreds of students are trained. Have a look, too, at the Good Samaritan Hospital and at a Sunday School building which houses hundreds of Sunday school children, so that no child in the area will ever need to be left outside during Sunday school time. In one of the rooms of this building may be seen the picture of the sweet face of the little girl whose 57 cents, so sacrificially saved, made such remarkable history. Alongside of it is a portrait of her kind pastor, Dr. Russell H. Conwell, author of the book, Acres of Diamonds.

A true story, which goes to show WHAT GOD, CAN DO with 57 cents. Please forward this to those friends who would receive a blessing from reading this true story.

"Suffer the little children to come unto Me, for theirs is the Kingdom of God."

Monday, 9 January 2017

WHY ARE JEWS SO SMART? By Dr. Stephen Carr Leon

*Since I spent about 3 years in Israel for internship in a few hospitals there, it came to my mind about doing research on  "Why the Jews are Intelligent."*

*It goes without denial that Jews are ahead in all aspects of life, such as engineering, music, science & most obviously  in business -  nearly 70% of world trade & businessesare held by the Jews - in cosmetics, food, fashion, arms, hotels & film industries (Hollywood etc)!*

*During my 2nd year, I was about to go back to California. This idea came to my mind & I was wondering why God gave this gift or ability to them? Is this a coincidence? Or is it man-made? Can intelligent Jews be produced like goods from a factory? My research took abt 8 yrs to gather all the information as accurately as possible, like their food intake, culture, religion, initial preparation of pregnancy, etc & I would compare them with other races!*

*Let’s start with initial preparation of pregnancy. In Israel, the first thing I noticed is that a pregnant mother wld always sing n play the piano n wld always try to solve mathematics problems together with her husband. I was very surprised to see that pregnant women always carry math books. Sometimes I would help her to solve some problems. I wld ask,  "Is this for your child in the womb?" She wld answer, "Yes to train the child still in the womb so that it would be a genius later on". She wld solve maths problems without let-up until the child is born!*

*Another thing I noticed is abt their food.  The pregnant women loved to eat almonds n dates with milk.  For lunch she wld take bread & fish (without the head), salad mixed with almonds & other nuts. They believe  fish is good for the development of the brain & that the fish head is bad for the brain. And also it is in the culture of the Jews for pregnant mothers to take cod liver oil!*

*When I was invited for dinner, I noticed that they always like to eat fish (flesh & fillet), but no meat. According to their belief, meat & fish together will not give any benefit to our body. Salad & nuts is a must, esp almonds!*

*They would always eat fruits first before the main meal. Their belief is that if you eat the main meal first (like bread or rice) then fruits, this will make us feel sleepy & difficult to understand lessons in school!*

*In Israel, smoking is a taboo. If you are a guest, don’t smoke in their house, they would politely ask you to go out to smoke. According to scientists in Universities in Israel, nicotine would destroy cells in our brain & will affect the genes & DNA, resulting in generations of moron or defective brain. All smokers  pls take note! (Ironically, the biggest producer of cigarettes is… you know who...)!*

*The food intake for the child is always under the guidance of the parents! First, the fruits with almonds, followed by cod liver oil.In my assessment, most Jewish children know at least 3 languages, ie Hebrew, Arabic & English. Since childhood they wld be trained in playing the piano & violin - it is a must!*

*They believe that this practice will increase the IQ of the child & will make him a genius.  According to Jewish scientists, the vibrations of music wld stimulate the brain.  That is why there are lots of geniuses among the Jews!*

*Since grade 1 to 6, they wld be taught business maths, science subjects would be their first preference. As comparison, I cld see the IQ of children in California is about 6 years back. Jewish children are also involved in athletics such as archery, shooting & running. They believe that archery & shooting wld make the brain more focused on decision-mkg & precision!*

*In high school, students are more inclined to study science.  They wld create products, indulge in all sorts of projects  although some looks very funny or useless). But all attention is given seriously -especially if it is on armaments, medicine or engineering. A successful project or idea wld be introduced in higher study institutes, polytechnics or universities!*

*Business faculty is given more preference in the last year of university.  Students in business studies would be given a project & they can only pass if their group (about 10 in a grp) can make a profit of USD1 million !*

*Don’t be surprised - this is the reality. And that is why half of the business in the world is held by the Jews. For instance, guess who designed the latest Levis?  It is being designed in an Israeli university by the Faculty of Business & Fashion!*

*Have you seen  how they pray?  They always shake their heads -  they believe this action will stimulate & provide the brain with more oxygen! (Same thing with Islam where you need to bow down your head!)*.

*Look at the Japanese, they always bow down their heads as their culture - lots of them are smart -  they love sushi (fresh fish). Is this a coincidence?*

*In the USA, the commercial & trading centers for Jews are based in New York -  catering only to the Jews. If any Jew has any novel & beneficial idea, their committee sanctions interest free loans & will make sure their business prospers!*

*Thus Jewish companies like Starbucks, Dell Computers, Coca Cola, DKNY, Oracle, Levis, Dunkin Donut, Hollywood films & hundreds of other businesses were given encouraging sponsorships!*

*Jewish medical graduates in New York are encouraged to register with them & allowed to practice privately with this interest free loans!Now I know why most hospitals in New York & California always lack specialist doctors!*

*Smoking leads to generations of morons! During my visit to Singapore in 2005, I was surprised to see smokers are regarded as outcasts & the price of a pack of cigarettes is about USD 7. Like in Israel, it is taboo. Singapore's form of govt is similar to the Israelis. And that is the reason why most of their universities have high standards,  even though Singapore is only as big as Manhattan!*

*Look at Indonesia, everywhere people are smoking. The price of a pack of cigarettes is very cheap only USD 0.70 cents! The result is millions of people with very little intelligence You can count the number of universities, what product they produce that they can be proud of, low technology, can't speak other than their own language! For instance  why is it so difficult for them to master the English language? All this is due to smoking, their diet, culture!*

*In my thesis, I do not touch on religion or race -  why the Jews are so arrogant that they were being chased around since the time of the Pharaoh until Hitler. For me it is about politics & survival. The bottom line is: Can we produce intelligent generations just like the Jews??*

*The answer could be yes. We need to change our daily habits of eating & parenting,, maybe within 3 generations, it could be achieved!*

*This I could observe in my grandson, for example, at the age of 9 he cld write a 5-page essay on "Why I love tomato!"*

*May all of us be in peace & succeed in producing future generations of geniuses for the betterment of humankind, no matter who you are!*

Thursday, 1 December 2016

Pastor and Bishop


Titus 1:7, 8, 9 For a bishop must be blameless, as the steward of God; not selfwilled, not soon angry, not given to wine, no striker, not given to filthy lucre; But a lover of hospitality, a lover of good men, sober, just, holy, temperate; Holding fast the faithful word as he hath been taught, that he may be able by sound doctrine both to exhort and to convince the gainsayers.

In the Catholic Church (Roman Catholic - the largest Catholic denomination) the church hierarchy goes as follow:

Pope - Chief of the Roman Catholic Church, who overlooks the Cardinals and the RC as a whole. He sits in Vatican City [which is a country /independent state in itself]. He is both monarch and spiritual head that is why has a religious crown. By the Catholic he is considered infallible and Christ in the flesh, he is also considered to have authority not only over people on earth but also over Angels in Heaven. He is final authority on all things and can change scriptures, as well as traditions of the RC Church [which overrule scriptures].

Cardinals - He is appointed by the Pope and there are 178 Cardinals [as of today]. He overlooks Archbishops, normally there is one Cardinal per country but that depends on the population of Catholics in that country or its political influence.

Archbishop - overlooks a diocese / archdiocese and has Bishops reporting to him. A Cardinal can also hold the post of Archbishop.

Bishop - is the actual ordained priest of the Catholic Church. He is a teacher of church doctrine, a priest of sacred worship, and a minister of church government.

Priest:  Is a minister ordained by the Bishop to administer most of the Catholic sacraments, including the Eucharist, baptism, and marriage. He is committed to serving the congregation [ordinary people / Catholics]. So he is a substitute or extension of the Bishop.

Deacon: A transitional deacon is a seminarian studying for the priesthood. A permanent deacon can be married and assists a priest by performing some of the Catholic sacraments.

In all this you will be surprised there is actually one post of Bishop. It is the Bishop of Rome who is anointed as Pope. All the other posts were made for administrative purposes. The Catholic Church tried to continue the Jewish format of Priest, High Priest and Chief High Priest.

Biblically according to OT all Levites were anointed to be priests and the one overseeing them was the High Priest. As they broke up and settled as per their various tribes each settlement had a set of Levites [who were not given inheritance so shared with others] and a High Priest, later they set one High Priest above all others and called him the Chief High Priest.

The Believer Church after the Reformation movement came out of the RC Church but carried many things from that church. Today we have the Believers having posts in their church that is of Bishop / Pastor, following the Catholic Bishop / Priest format.

Before the coming of Christ and the Holy Spirit being given to the Church [Callings are connected to the Holy Spirit] all the various Callings were not revealed therefore the Administration Calling was done by the High Priest / Bishop which the Greek word ‘episkopos’ means overseer. He is appointed as administrative head of a congregation and as per today’s message is a person of great responsibility therefore needs to be a person of sound character. The Church is a body thus worked and works as a corporation. During the time of Apostles there were 5 persons who over looked the whole Church namely Peter, John, James, Paul and Barnabas. This team was further divided into two with Peter, John and James looking after the Jewish origin Christians and with Paul and Barnabas looking after the Gentile origin Christians.

Coming to post of Pastor, any person who leads another in spiritual matters is known as a Pastor [shepherd], so any and every one who is ministering to others is a Pastor. It is not a title or post as made to be understood today.

The book of Revelation does mention the Jewish system of Nicolaitans [a system bought into Christianity by a Jewish heretic named Nicolas, who was active during the times of the Apostles] would dominate 4 stages / periods of 7 stages / periods of the Church.

Let us open our eyes for the time of change has come. We are moving for the 5th period of evangelism into the 6th period of all churches coming together as one body. Let us walk according the plans of God for it is only when we abide in it will it manifest the glory of God.

[Prayer Starter]
Lord You are Almighty God and even before when You created this creation your Word says You saw it. Lord everything You do is with plan and all your plans are good. We pray Lord we do not divert from your plans and comply with them. Help us Lord to bring correction and thus manifest your glory on earth as it is in Heaven...

This prayer we make in Jesus’ Name, Amen.

[Reference System]
Revelations 2:6,15
6  But this thou hast, that thou hatest the deeds of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate.
15  So hast thou also them that hold the doctrine of the Nicolaitans, which thing I hate.

Galatians 2:9  And when James, Cephas, and John, who seemed to be pillars, perceived the grace that was given unto me, they gave to me and Barnabas the right hands of fellowship; that we should go unto the heathen, and they unto the circumcision.

Act 6:5 And the saying pleased the whole multitude: and they chose Stephen, a man full of faith and of the Holy Ghost, and Philip, and Prochorus, and Nicanor, and Timon, and Parmenas, and Nicolas a proselyte (new comer) of Antioch:

Dated 13 Nov 2016
Bro Rollwyn

Beware when these happen to you


1. Beware When prayer becomes a difficult thing for you.

2. Beware When fasting is becoming a history in your spiritual timetable.

3. Beware When you no longer enjoy reading the word of God.

4. Beware When attending church programme is becoming a burden rather than a blessing for you.

5. Beware When living a life of holiness is appearing like extremism.

6. Beware When sinful living becomes a lifestyle in the name of grace.

7. Beware When you crave for earthly things rather than the things of God.

8. Beware When waking up in the night to pray is becoming a thing of the past.

9. Beware brethren, when your heart no longer desires to see the Lord Jesus one day.

10. Beware when you eat more than pray

11. Beware when you no longer share the word with others.

12. Beware When u start diluting the preaching Word of God to keep people around you.

13.  Beware When you spend more time on Facebook, whatsapp, twitter, and internet. These things become idols and take the place of God.

14. Beware when you are very spiritual outside but inside full of spiritual dryness..

15. Beware when you have more carnal friends than spiritual friends..

16. Beware When you ignore messages such as these.

Beware of all these, brethren. Satan isn't resting. We too must be vigilant.

Lets prepare, Jesus is coming soon to take those who are eagerly waiting for him.

Thursday, 3 November 2016

The Wedding Gift

She married him today. At the end of the wedding
party, her mother gave her a newly opened bank
savings passbook, with $1000 deposited in it.

She told her, "My dear daughter, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your married life. Whenever something
happy and memorable happens in your new life, put
some money in. Write down what it's about next to the
amount. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with your husband. When you look back after many years, you will know how much happiness you've both shared.'

She shared this with
him after getting home. Both of them thought it was a
great idea and couldn't wait to make the next deposit!
This is what the passbook looked like after a while: -
7Feb: $100, his first birthday celebration after marriage
1 Mar: $300, she gets a salary raise
20 Mar: $200, vacation
15 Apr: $2000, She's pregnant!
1 Jun: $1000, He gets the big promotion and so on...

However, as the years went by, they began fighting
and arguing over trivial things. They didn't talk much.

They regretted that they had married the most nasty
person in the world. There was no more love.

One day she talked to her Mother. 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We have decided to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!'

Her mother replied, 'Sure, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want, if
you really can't stand it.

But before that, do one thing remember the savings passbook I gave you on your
wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first.
You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor
marriage.'

She agreed with her mother. So she went to the bank, and was waiting in the queue to cancel the account.

While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joyful moments came back to her. Her eyes were filled with tears.

She left and went home. When she got home, she handed the passbook to her hubby and asked him to spend the money before getting divorced.

So the next day, he went to the bank, and was waiting in the queue to cancel the account. While he was waiting, he took a look at the passbook record. He looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joyful moments came back to him. His eyes were filled with tears.

He left and went home. He gave the passbook back to her. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I realized how much I've loved you throughout all these years. How much happiness you've brought me.' They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back into the safe.

Marriage is not a game, it's not easy but it's beautiful. You will fight and argue, this is normal, because the both of you came from different
background, different homes and you both were raised by
different parents, beliefs and moral. So you cannot expect that everything you say will be accepted by your spouse without their opinion being tendered first. So before you give up, think back to the good times and to what brought you together in the first place.

Dedicated to all married couples.

Please forward to your married children too.

Wednesday, 2 November 2016

Satanic ritual abuse survivor's amazing testimony

The following is a shortened-version of my testimony. My book, I Choose Jesus, is about my life's testimony. It's available on Amazon.

BEFORE READING THIS, PLEASE REALIZE THAT THIS NOTE AND TESTIMONY TALKS ABOUT MANY DARK THINGS AND MAY TRIGGER YOU IF YOU WENT THROUGH SRA OR WERE A WILLING LUCIFERIAN. PLEASE USE CAUTION WHILE READING AS THIS NOTE IS EXTREMELY TRIGGERING AND MAY TRIGGER SURVIVORS OF ABUSE, SRA, OR WILLING EX-CULT MEMBERS. YOU MAY RE-SHARE MY TESTIMONY ON YOUR WALL, BUT IF YOU DO, PLEASE WRITE TW BEFORE SHARING IT AS IT IS EXTREMELY TRIGGERING. DUE TO THIS, I MAY WRITE THINGS BACKWARDS OR DIFFERENTLY THAN YOU ARE USE TO - THIS IS NOT BECAUSE OF TYPOS, BUT RATHER TO PROTECT MYSELF OR OTHERS WHO MAY BE TRIGGERED BY CERTAIN THINGS. SEVERAL KEY THINGS HAVE BEEN LEFT OUT - PLEASE NOTE THAT.
Imagine having to fight from early childhood to serve Jesus...imagine having to fight against lucifer himself. Now, imagine surviving this and living a life fighting the darkness. Imagine being a five and six year old girl and wanting only to follow Jesus yet being tortured for it - this isn't a testimony of somebody in the Middle East or China. This is my testimony: a little girl from America encountering severe persecution and torment for following Jesus. I have shared portions of my testimony before and my closest friends know my testimony but I felt like it was time to share my testimony here.I recently wrote a book, I Choose Jesus, about my entire testimony - this is just a shortened version. What you are about to read may shock and scare you, that is if you have no prior knowledge or experience with the cult. But, I want to share my story in hopes that somebody somewhere will not give up - no matter what you are going through.

Infancy and Toddler years

I come from a long line of black magick. My biological " donors" (whom have never earned the title of parents) both had satanic blood lines. Her family was involved in the Illuminati ( in the top 100 families) and his family was in the top 33 families of the Illuminati. Anyhow, back to my story, if you know anything about the way luciferianism works you will know that babies, inside their mom's womb, have curses placed upon them just from being created for luciferianism. Yes, even demons are called upon the children in the womb so that when they are born they are demonized. This is what they wanted me to be. You see, he wanted to sacrifice me when I was only a few months old. Usually, babies are sacrificed between seven and nine months. When I born, I was very sick - I believe God used this for my advantage. What I mean is that, although they were able to start abusing me during infancy, they could not fulfill all that they planned. A few weeks after I was born, Child Protective Services pulled me out of there. I always feel like, even though CPS is evil, Jesus used them for my good - otherwise, I would have been sacrificed, too. I was then shipped off to the foster care system. I was in and out of several foster homes. However, the one that I was at before I was adopted was the worst - they were xesually and ritualistically abusive to me. They were plants, who tried to get me to be dedicated as a bride of satan - I found out later they were in the same branch of luciferianism as my biological donor was in. They were given me specifically to try to junk me up. Because I had not been sacrificed, they decided to dedicate me as a bride of lucifer's. I will not go into details about the ceremony, for it was very evil and dark, but what I can say is they called many demons into me at that point - in hopes that later on, when I actually had a "wedding ceremony" to him that I would be a willing follower of lucifer's.

That is the point when lucifer began to attack me - the torment from demons began at that point. I remember being a toddler and being hurt so badly by demons. Back to my story - the Lord intervened and my parents were notified that I was available to be adopted - here's a cool story, the Lord had shown them what I would look like. Amazing, huh? They came to see me, fell in love, and I moved in with them a few weeks later. I was spared from further SRA for several years. My parents are Spirit - filled Christians who were, at the time, going to a church where revival meetings were taking place. I believe that is where I got a deposit of my calling as a revivalist, just sitting on the floor at two and three years old listening to revival services; being soaked in God's presence. It was amazing.

Salvation and Preaching

My parents tried to have me come to Jesus on July 4, 1993 but because I was so tormented by demons, I didn't want anything to do with Him. However, that night, Jesus came to visit me in my room... He showed me His Love for me... the next morning, He super-ceded the demons and I wanted my mommy to lead me to Jesus. This occurred only a few weeks after I turned three. It was immediately that I began to have a fire burning in me to preach the Gospel. In fact, it was right after I turned four - just a year after getting saved - that I began to go to grocery stores and restaurants and preached His Gospel. I would ask the cashiers and waitresses if they knew Jesus. Some were touched and got saved - some were offended. But, like my daddy said...they could never stop me from preaching; it burned so deeply in me. I remember so often from three-five that I would have these revelations about eternity. I would simply know that people would spend eternity with Jesus or with satan. I use to cry myself to sleep, as a child, feeling the pain of how people would feel if they didn't choose Him. I guess I can say I was always called to be an evangelist.

Persecution Begins
I did have some abuse from the time I was adopted 'til the beginning of Kindergarten ("family" members and the like), but it wasn't as horrific as when I started school - some of my extended family members xesually abused me. But, when I started Kindergarten, the abuse heightened. This is when I began to be persecuted for Jesus. My parents sent me a private "Christian" school - which was principaled by the "pastor" (notice the quotes around those words...many can say they follow Christ but just because they say it doesn't mean they do) of the church. This pastor was also a mason and so, he and his wife began to abuse me. It started out slow but shortly, it became ritualistic. They would rape and xesually abuse and then, they told me they would stop if I denied Jesus as my Savior - apparently, I "preached" too much for them and they wanted to shut me up. I told them no matter what they did to me I would never deny Jesus. They continued to ritualistically abuse me, do rituals on me, and xesually hurt me. By the first grade, my mom got deathly sick and they told me if I ever told my parents what they were doing, that my mom would die from the sickness. Of course, being six years old, I didn't know any better. There were many times I wanted to tell her but I was afraid - she, along with my daddy and gram, were my only friends...the only people in my life, I couldn't lose them. In first grade, this "pastor" finally did a wedding ceremony on me to satan - if you remember from earlier, I had been dedicated as a bride. In luciferianism, the child is usually about six years old when they have a wedding ceremony done. Again, I will not into the graphic details, but I will tell you this - satan showed up. That was my first experience with lucifer. Lucifer told me I needed to deny Christ, but I didn't. Therefore, I was not only being persecuted by humans but by satan himself.

Programming and MK Ultra

You can research MK Ultra, if you want - it is governmental mind control that is performed upon children who are SRA survivors. It tries to create the child to be a slave to the Illuminati's every whim. Well, I had this done to me at the next school I went to. Due to my mom's sickness, I had to switch schools for second and third grade. The principal of that school was related to Joseph Stalin. He had also been in the military - so, he knew all about how to program people. Programming is a long and complicated thing which will take hours to explain, so I suggest you research it, if you are interested. Programming is done by traumatizing a child - usually through severe xesual abuse. This principal, along the assistant principal, several teachers, the school nurse, and the counselor were all involved in the Illuminati/cult. They worked together to abuse and torment me. I would go to the nurse's office almost every day and she would drug me with drugs - I do not know which form, but I do know that from how I explained it to people who used to be drug addicts, they said it sounded like LSD (which is a common drug used for programming). I was drugged in the morning and would be better when I got home. This made me nervous, afraid, anxious... again, they tried to tell me they would stop abusing me IF - AND ONLY IF - I denied Jesus as my Savior. I didn't. They would have these classes in school telling people to worship trees and mother earth, I refused to do it and ran out of class - they then tortured me. My parents never knew about the Mk Ultra and programming until I told them years later (when I could make sense of things) - but one time, I came home from school covered in diarrhea because the school made me sit in it all day. My parents wanted to sue, but the area we were in was so infiltrated - so I finished second and third grade there, then, I was homeschooled. I was called as a revivalist at 7 years old after having a vision and encounter with Him.

Pregnancy

Once I was homeschooled, the constant abuse stopped for a few years - however, when I was nine years old, my cous gang raped and abused me. I began to self harm myself at nine years old due to this incident. Then, when I was eleven they - along with my other cousin - gang raped me again. I got pregnant.  I was only a few months past my eleventh birthday and I got pregnant. It was during this time that I fell apart. Anyhow, I ended up having a miscarriage a few months later. I must say I was thankful for my daughter going to heaven (I named her Gem) - I was thankful because she would not be hurt like I was. She was safe with Jesus. I began to have horrific health problems at this point BECAUSE I was pregnant so young. Ever since then, I have struggled with many sicknesses.

Church Abuse and the Dark Night of the Soul
Around this same time, I was going to a church and this lady, who was a youth leader, turned out to be a witch, as well. You see, dark witches and satanists have an understanding that - no matter where a person goes - they must be abused. I do not understand how they network works but I do know that no matter where I moved, they seemed to find me and abuse me. This leader was no different - one night, I was just wanting to worship Jesus and she wanted me to play fear factor with the youth group, but I didn't want to. I had just been filled with the Spirit and was becoming lovesick for Jesus. So, she grabbed me by the arm, slammed me into a wall (which broke the plaster, by the way, that's how hard she threw me), and began to scream at me. She told me God hated me, I was going to hell, and that I needed deliverance because I talked about God too much (do you see a common denominator here, yet?). I was shocked, I do not understand what happened next but from that day forward for five years, I entered in the Dark Night of the Soul (which I wrote about in my book Desolation to Consecration). Her words affected me and demons from her began to piggy-back on me. For five years, I could not feel His presence or hear His voice (other than prophetic dreams about things that were happening in the world). I was devastated. I cried out every night, for five and a half years, for like four to six hours every night begging God to come and encounter me. Not only was I not feeling or hearing Him, but the tormented heated up during this time. This is a whole story in itself for another day or you can read my book.

High School

I began public school again my freshman year. The first day I walked into school, the bullying began. I had my Jesus bracelet on and one of the boys in homeroom started making fun of me for being a Jesus freak. He mocked me and kept asking if I was a Jesus freak. I, of course, told him yes. He made everybody in my homeroom make fun of me. The teasing started slowly, mostly just with those in my homeroom until about a month into school. I was in my English class in Oct. 2004 and my English teacher wanted us to read a book out loud, taking turns. I refused to do it for it mocked Jesus and took His Name in vain. She was infuriated with me. She did all kinds of crazy things to me about it but I still said, no I will not diss my Savior. I will not take His Name in vain. It was that day that marked the beginning of the torment in high school. By the end of the day, my entire grade heard about what I had said and they began mocking me, cussing Jesus' Name in front of me, and putting gum on my seat.

The gum thing led to bigger problems - by the end of the next week, the entire school knew about what happened and people I didn't even knew who they were wrote me hate notes, threw things at me in the hallway, did xesual things to me, cursed at me, threatened to rape me, all kinds of things. Soon, the death threats came. The first death threat came around Christmas break my freshman year. I opened my locker (my lock had been stolen by some of my bullies) and there was a death threat written to me. I went to the counselors and they laughed at me, told me it wasn't a big deal but then, they ended up ushering all the kids out of school (or locking down the school), sometimes, I got a death threat. THEY tried to get me to deny Jesus, as well. But, again, I never would. By my junior year, I had a person tell me they had a gun in school and would kill me with it. Satan came to school and I saw him walking through the halls, he was laughing at me. I prayed in tongues. It was a few minutes later that I found the gun threat. Our school was locked down but I was forced to remain in class with everybody (as if that was safe - who was to say the person with the gun wasn't in class with me?). It was around that time He began to talk to me  heavily about martyrdom. My life was meant only for Him and I was willing to die for Him

At this point, I struggled every day with self - harm, an eating disorder, and self hatred. At the end of my junior year, I attempted suicide. But, as I was above my body (not sure if I was dying or I was high, whichever whatever...) He told me, "Hepzibah, it is not your time to come home yet, I have too many things for you" and He put me back into my body.

Because we lived in such a small community, there were no other schools around and I could not be homeschooled again - but my senior year, we found another Christian school in the town over from us. I was bullied there, too, even had death threats but it wasn't as bad as the other school.

Ministry
Finally, toward the last few months of high school, the Dark Night lifted and He flooded me with His Presence. During this time, the Lakeland Revival was going on and I could not stop watching it. I was so touched by God there - in fact, that made me get bullied at the Christian school because they said I was too crazy for Jesus. As if ANYBODY can be too crazy for Jesus ;-) For my 18th birthday, we went to Lakeland (which just so happens to be where I was born, imagine that...full circle) and I got wrecked! For the next two years, I was blasted and consumed by His Presence daily. I was constantly drunk in His Love. It was amazing. In 2009, the Lord told me to start ministry full time and I did. I ended up having this huge online ministry - between my Facebook and youtube, I got to minister to over 750,000 people! It was incredible! My youtube videos were even put on secular tv (many got saved from those videos...). It was amazing. Holy Spirit was pouring His presence out greatly. However, in 2010 this all stopped. You see, the cult has this time in a person's life where they must "willingly" follow satan or die - this is called a "call-back". My age was 20. Throughout my life, I did not think I would live past my 20th birthday because of this. I made a declaration that I was a member of Jesus' bride on my birthday, I even took pictures in my wedding dress with my wedding ring on for Jesus. Yes, I lived passed June 19, 2010 but entered into an intense season of warfare. Because I did not follow satan at that time, I began to be tortured by the demons and lucifer again - true, this had never stopped but intensified after my 20th birthday. Lucifer himself came to me and said, "if you do not deny Jesus, I will make you sick." Again, I didn't...they are wasting their time, I will never deny Jesus. But, hence, I got cancer. I began to be sick around this time. I even died and was resurrected several times (oh how amazing it was to be with Jesus...sigh). The torment was constant, the luciferians got involved and began to harass and attack me, as well. I was very broken, so much pain emotionally, physically, and spiritually...but I decided to use their abuse to minister to them - I minister to them about Jesus. At first, they wouldn't get saved but now, thousands of cult members have been saved. All thanks to Jesus.

You see, we should never hate those who hurt us - I have seen first hand what Jesus' love does to a person. I have seen Him change even my worst abusers. Am I sick still? Yes. He healed me from Multiple Myeloma a few years back but, now, I deal with bone cancer. Do I still deal with warfare daily? Yes. But, it is all for the glory of God. I magnify Him in my sufferings because He told me, when I was in heaven, the following (and this is true for you, too)

Jesus has said to me, "everything they do to you, they do to Me - for I Am in you."

If you glean anything from my testimony, please know that He is never ever ever to be given up on...no matter how bad your torment is.

If you would like to find out more about my ministry, please go to www.theliontriumphs.com

Jesus adores you and I am praying for you. Feel free to inbox or e-mail me with your prayer requests or questions.

Check out my book, I Choose Jesus, as well.

Hepzibah <3